"I'll do whatever it takes. To turn this around. I know what's at stake."
"Now the lesson's learned. I touched it I was burned"
"I felt the wind come through the window. I felt it turn around and switch back."
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Day 11 - Failed Anger
Its been three weeks now. I've been trying to get over you. But everything reminds me of you.
I blamed you, for the way I feel. Why make it perfect to take it all away. I didn't have the choice. You made that choice for me. Took me a week to build up the anger. I was almost convincing. I even called you out on facebook.
No one knew I was talking about you. I needed to let it out. The anger of the situation.
No matter how hard I try, I can't get over you. I keep thinking about you. Constantly. Everyday.
I feel like a borderline stage 5 clinger. I hate feeling this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I wasn't supposed to let you in. I wasn't supposed to let some guy break down my wall. I wasn't supposed to hurt again.
I didn't ever think you were the one to do this to me. I know it's not intentional. But it doesn't change how I feel.
I am trying to get over you. But I can't. I am waiting. Approx 50 more days.
I blamed you, for the way I feel. Why make it perfect to take it all away. I didn't have the choice. You made that choice for me. Took me a week to build up the anger. I was almost convincing. I even called you out on facebook.
No one knew I was talking about you. I needed to let it out. The anger of the situation.
No matter how hard I try, I can't get over you. I keep thinking about you. Constantly. Everyday.
I feel like a borderline stage 5 clinger. I hate feeling this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I wasn't supposed to let you in. I wasn't supposed to let some guy break down my wall. I wasn't supposed to hurt again.
I didn't ever think you were the one to do this to me. I know it's not intentional. But it doesn't change how I feel.
I am trying to get over you. But I can't. I am waiting. Approx 50 more days.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Sixty to Ninety Days
Sixty to Ninety days is about my journey as I wait Sixty to Ninety Days for my Happy Place to return. I lost my happy place on January 9th, 2010. My happy place has dark hair, amazing blue eyes and the most biggest, warming, heart melting smile ever. He's kind and passionate about the things he loves. He is my friend, my best friend. I have never felt so connected to someone in all my life. Someone who gets me, someone who is a cookie cutter of my fun, nerdy personality. He is important to have in my life and I am miss my best friend.
No, he's not looked up or out of town. In fact, he's here in my town. We both have situations that prevent us from talking right now. For the next Sixty to Ninety Days, we can't have any communication till our situations are finalized.
My countdown began the 21st of January... only sixty to ninety days left.
This is my journey.
No, he's not looked up or out of town. In fact, he's here in my town. We both have situations that prevent us from talking right now. For the next Sixty to Ninety Days, we can't have any communication till our situations are finalized.
My countdown began the 21st of January... only sixty to ninety days left.
This is my journey.